its been a while...

Its been a long time since I let the thoughts in my head poor across a screen, it's been even longer since I've thought of sharing it.

This fall marks my final year of my undergrad- its been a long time coming, and everyone seems to have an opinion on how I should approach it.

The debate is: to thesis, or not to thesis- it has been an on going theme in my life lately, although not an internal debate one inflicted on me through various people in my life.
I am going to thesis, no I'm not going on to get my masters, yes I know it isn't required if I WAS going to do my masters, I also know it doesn't put me that far ahead in the workplace. But who cares?
Its' my choice, and its what I set out to do- I'm going to do it.

News: I live with a boy- its not going great. Mom came to visit, gave some hasty last minute advice, which changed everything and opened my eyes. I'm looking for a new place to live- mom doesn't want me repeating her mistakes. So boy and I have gone from partner to boyfriend and girlfriend- not as inclusive for my less mainstream friends, but it removes the implicit commitment that I'm not really down for right now...

Sister is in a place also in norther Ontario, but not as north, and not all that close- she has really begun to grow on me- I feel closer to her now then ever before, and I know I need her in my life. She is doing well, becoming a trades-women and succeeding- its odd, that she and I will enter the work force together.

I an going on a trip to Costa Rica in about a year, it will be a long life experience kind of trip, and I cannot wait. I have missed out on many opportunities to travel- simply because of money.

I have amazing friends, the kinds of people that stay with you, when you havn't seen them in months- that keep in touch when you dont, and reply when you do. That want to see you when you're finally home for a visit.

Speaking of home, its been too long. I vow to never again. I need more of my family in my life-

I accidently became a feminist- to which I have received much criticism, and suggestions, and disappointment.

I struggle along side all creatures and earth, against the created ideals of a false norm and a constructed power- the struggle is one I see in everyone and everything, but it should not be the basis for unity. We are all connected and because this is not the normal view point I fight, and given my stance I am a feminist.

People don't like that. They don't like it when you request they treat you with dignity, they don't like it when you point out things they didn't see, or didn't want to see on their own. Its complex, its scary, its deep, its mean, its just the world I was brought up in, but its not the world I'll rear the next generation in.

So yeah, I think I'll keep writing. It feels good to let it out. To breath life into my thoughts without criticism.